My body is a temple.

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1 My body is a temple.

2 CHAPTER 1 Before You Begin If any thing is sacred the human body is sacred. L Walt Whitman

3 THE BODY TEMPLE: Kundalini Yoga for Body Acceptance, Eating Disorders, and Radical Self-Love Many of you reading this book do not have an eating disorder, but some of you may. If you are in a severe active state of any eating disorder, at risk of self-harm, or a danger to yourself, please seek professional help. Throw this book into your bag on your way out the door, but it is imperative that if you are in crisis, you seek treatment now. Eating disorders are life-threatening, and there is nothing more precious than you, even if you don t realize it yet. The teachings and tools within this book are not meant to replace professional medical treatment; they are intended to support a meditative, spiritual journey that will support you in the long haul. Recovery from any addiction, including eating disorders, is a marathon, not a sprint. For some, these tools may be all you need to carve out a path to self-love and healing; for others they will be a key supplement. If you think you aren t ready for help or don t want it, hear this: You Deserve to Be Happy. Read that again, because it is entirely true that you deserve a feeling-good life in a feeling-good body. You deserve to grow, to thrive, and to live your destiny. Your story may include an eating disorder or negative body image, but you are so much more than this one chapter. You can heal. You can emerge through this critical and challenging time and flower into the fullness of your heart. I know this to be true because it happened for me. I remember feeling that there was nothing past the cycle of binge and purge and restriction and self-punishment that I had been stuck in for years, that there was no way forward in life without it. I was very wrong. There is a whole world on the other side of recovery; and for me, I have to treat recovery like a close friend. We keep in touch. I don t just mean recovery from an eating disorder. I mean recovery from feeling uncomfortable in my own body, recovery from negative thoughts about my body and myself, and recovery from thinking that my body has to meet some ideal in order for my life to be good. I have to watch my thoughts every day, and stay vigilant in my self-love and self-care. I actively use the teachings of Kundalini Yoga and Meditation to remind myself of my self-worth and to restore my spirit so that I don t fall back into unhealthy habits and patterns. To get here, in this healed and happy state, I did a lot of work, and I continue working. The majority of that work was Kundalini Yoga as taught by Yogi Bhajan including lots of meditation and mantra. I also relied on psychotherapy, especially in the early stages of recovery. But in the end, I found that I couldn t count on anyone or anything outside of myself to heal. Only I could love myself, and only I could use the power of self-love to change my life. Only I could put the tools and techniques included in this book to use. 16

4 CHAPTER 1 Before You Begin Some of what you read here might seem strange or different, especially if you haven t practiced Kundalini Yoga before. Some of the language in the meanings of the mantras might make you uncomfortable if you don t have a spiritual practice, but the truth is you do not have to believe in God for any of this to heal or to help. The only thing you have to believe in is yourself. Let me say this: I believe you can heal, too. Whether you have an eating disorder or not, if you have ever had an unkind thought about yourself or your body, I am holding the space for you to thrive. With every word in this book, I hope to reach out across time and space and give you a hug. I know how it feels to have an eating disorder, but I also know how it feels to recover. I know what it s like to hate my body and punish it, and I know what it s like to love my body and adore it. Standing in the light feels so much better than keeping yourself trapped in the darkness. Take my hand, open this book, and begin a journey to Feeling Good Again. The path of Kundalini Yoga has secrets to teach you, not the least of which is this: You are destined to shine. With all my love, courage, and faith in you, Ramdesh Kaur 17

5 CHAPTER 8 Kriyas Dancing Your Way to Joy Sometimes the best thing we can do for ourselves is also the kindest and gentlest. Dancing and allowing the body to release stored tension and trauma can be a wonderful way to speed up recovery from an eating disorder or create a strong practice of self-love. For many people who struggle with self-love, being present in their bodies is the last thing they want to do. But this gentle movement relaxation makes the body a peaceful place. It allows our spirits to feel safe in our bodies again. In order to maintain a long-term relationship of kindness with ourselves and our bodies, we have to be able to stay present, feel good, and be at peace. It is one of my absolute favorite kriyas to teach in groups, especially with people who need to learn to love themselves again after experiencing trauma and abuse, or people who have been told they are ugly, worthless, or unlovable and have come to believe it. It s an incredibly freeing opportunity to redefine your relationship to your body and change the narrative of your self-worth. Kriya: Movement Relaxation Series Originally taught by Yogi Bhajan: August 22, 1986 This gentle dancing series gives you the chance to relax into your body and make peace with it. Call a truce, shut your eyes, and allow yourself to feel beautiful. This kriya releases the stored emotional trauma that we keep in our bodies, that build up and can turn to mental imbalances. 1 Stand up and close your eyes. Relax your arms. Become aware of your body and all of its parts. Feel any tension that is in your body and consciously let it go. Begin to sway and dance. Allow every part of your body to move. Dance gracefully, letting the movement reach every part of your body. Play high vibrational music in the background and let your heart dance along with your body. Suggested practice is 3-11 minutes. This strengthens your heart and circulatory systems. 149

6 THE BODY TEMPLE: Kundalini Yoga for Body Acceptance, Eating Disorders, and Radical Self-Love Ramdesh s Insight: Do not allow yourself to become shy or shameful. With the gentle touch of a divine lover, touch every square inch of your body the way you always should have been touched. Energetically place adoration and love into every part of your body as you touch it. You may feel energy buzzing from your palms; this practice smoothes the energy of the aura. 2 Remain standing and with your eyes closed, begin to move your hands over your body, touching every single part. 3-5 minutes. 3 Lean forward from your waist and drop your arms and hands down toward the ground. Hang forward and allow all your muscles to relax. Breathe normally minutes. Ramdesh s Insight: Feel stress and pain draining out of your spine, down your hands, and into the earth. Ramdesh s Insight: You may choose to listen to mantra or a guided visualization or relaxation. 4 Inhale and exhale deeply several times, then slowly bring yourself up straight and lean back and hang backward. Your arms should hang loosely at your sides. Breathe normally. 1 minute. 5 Now come lying onto your back and completely relax for 10 minutes. 150